What…could it really be jealousy?
Posted by SonyaAug 3
You find out who you are through waiting…
For years I have seen others be blessed beyond measure right before my eyes. I have prayed for others and seen the very thing that I needed… manifest in their lives and not in my own. There were times when I encouraged others and could have used a little cheering up myself. Hear my heart.
Through this process of watching others and waiting for my turn I’ve seen who I truly am. Somehow I managed to focus my eyes on the Kingdom, things above and now the blessings are following, as my life transitions. I have no idea why others were blessed before me or why they didn’t have to wait like I did. I can only tell you about my walk.
Was I ever frustrated? You know it. Of course, in this flesh of ours you get tired of holding on. But that’s a God thing… God had a reason for my seasons and in it I was still blessed. In some areas I am still believing, while sincerely happy for others.
It wasn’t for me to take it out on the people who were receiving some of my hearts desires. I was glad and rejoiced with them. Why? Because that’s what you are supposed to do! You genuinely celebrate as though it’s your own blessing. I truly did celebrate new homes, cars and other good things happening in the lives of those who were around me. Tell me what good is it to get mad at them or stop speaking to them?
I never had ill feelings toward a friend, co-worker or stranger for getting a new purse, new outfit or having a cute hair-do. No, I felt the joy that they experienced. I’ve had people personally come and wave new rings and even designer sunglasses for me to notice and I still was happy for them. Even though they were a little dramatic, but I knew that they had other issues when you have to go out of your way to be noticed. Okay, I can’t drift…that’s another subject there.
But really, what is it that makes people think that I or another sister are NOT supposed to have these things? Is it our job to figure out who’s entitled and who isn’t? Is this what my youngest son would call a “hater”?
I mean really…the looks, comments, “pretending like you don’t see the blessing” and cold shoulders are unnecessary because God is not pleased with that. Remember, whatever you sow, that shall you also reap! Do unto others what you want to be done to you. Right…?
It’s time to lay aside the weights that so easily beset us. In this case, it is pettiness that is stealing your joy. Deal with this and be free.
If you are envious or jealous of others, ask yourself why am I? Why does “this” bother me?
Be real about it. You need to get to the core because you’ll never be happy begrudging and mumbling about another person’s success. It is so much easier to rest in knowing that you are not forgotten. Knowing that it’s okay for others to be blessed, there is more than enough to go around if you are serving God.
Its mirror time…take a look and see what’s truly in your heart.

